Monday, November 16, 2009

Five Years Old





















I can't believe that Josh is Five!! Where does the time go? I can still remember Willey's mom wanting me to go for a walk and I totally didn't want to and we went about a mile and the contractions started coming pretty steadily, so we went home and I sat and rested, but the contractions didn't rest. Willey was on night shift so we had to wake him up, and his first reaction was, "Oh, well I need to change the oil in the car first". Ha ha. So I took a shower thinking they would slow down, but nope, it was time to go. We lived in Morenci and had to drive to Mesa. We got there and I had only dialated to a 2 and a half. But they were coming so they got me started on meds to help it along, well long story short 29 hours later the doctor came in and said you can either try for another hour or we can do the c-section now. And needless to say I was exhausted and opted for the c-section. A few minutes later, we had our first baby boy. Joshua Roy Biggs!! We were so excited. 8 lbs 5 ounces and 21 inches long, with a head of 15 inches!!! That was the #1 reason I had a 29 hour labor!!! He was always a good baby and has always had such a sweet love for his brothers. He loves to laugh and have a good time!! He loves playing with friends and spending time outside with his brothers! I have been blessed to be his mom and want to say Happy Birthday Josh!! Love you much!!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

VENTING

So I have been struggling a lot lately with so many, many things and all I can do to make it through is to just laugh and basically fake it until I make it ha ha! I hate that the future is so full of the unknown. I am just feeling so not in control of anything. Has anyone ever felt this way?? Advice?? I don't usual deal with stress very well, and everything is growing and I can't see the end of the light in this tunnel!! I know that H.F. is here for me and I know that sometimes our heads are so full of "life" that it is hard for us to hear his answers for us. But how can I calm things down to be able to hear the answers? I really feel like I am going a mile a minute trying to be a good mom and wife, trying to workout to have that great body, trying to keep my house clean. AHH! ok, I am done venting. I do have a lot to be thankful for, just could use some friend advice. :)!